feb.2006

Where have I reached in these years? Where was I going? The residual feeling.. Why is it always anxiety, uneasiness?
Witness has not been entirely non-prejudiced. Witness has for long been participating in the drama and that to, sentimentally. And the witness may not stand outside the stage; non-participation or rather participation is not an issue. Exploration of the unfolding drama with or without involvement on all the levels of operations would ensure feeling every bit of the mind operation in time and space. The problem is the witness has stuck with only the austere sage, wandering around, the Sthitapradnya. The other players playing their parts have become annoyance.

There always will be a inherent conflict within. Artistic endeavors, expressions, are means of explorations in this conflict. Painting a Himalayan scene, designing an austere, serious, dignified space and on the other bank, sculpting with strength, searching the conviction within.. The journey from one to the other.. only that will give the perspective and the true witness. Wholeness of the participation, it seems only that can provide the vantage point to observe.